A wish and a command that your 2015 will be absolutely stellar.
I'll be back in a day or two with a 2014 recap, but until then:
Have a wonderful New years eve!

Tjingeling!
/Lotta

Hi!
This year I've found a new way to express myself that suits me perfectly. Self Portraits.
I installed a self timer app on my iPhone a little over a year ago and was immediately hooked.
I've been thinking a lot about self portraits and what it is that makes it so intriguing to me.
I think it's many things. I don't take a lot of selfies in the meaning of holding the phone infront of me and taking a photo. I like selfies a lot, but for some reason I prefer to see myself in the surroundings I'm in, not just a photo of my face that day. It's like I want to remember the place I was at and the mood I was in at the moment I take my picture as much as I want to remember how I looked that day.
Another, more important thing, is my love for theatre. I've been acting since I was very young and always really loved the way the stage contains a story. That is one of the things I love with photography as well; to set a scene and create a fantasy situation in the world I live in.
Self portraits is such a great medium for that because taking a pretty photo of a beautiful landscape is one thing but often I think there's a person missing, someone who can take that amazing scenery and bring it back to a situation that tells a story.
A really tall mountain can be pretty to look at but it rarely tells a story. But if you put a person next to the mountain you not only get a better idea of how large the mountain really is, you also see the photo more from the eyes of the person in the picture. What must it have felt to be there, at that wonderous place?!

I take self portraits on lots of different occasions and for many reasons.
I think it has made me a better photographer too, actually. It forces me to create a scene in my mind and really think of what the feeling in the photo should be.

In this post I will show you some tips on how to take better self portraits and what tricks I use to create moods.
And remember, all of these are taken with my iphone (both my old 4s and my new iPhone6) so no fancy camera equipment needed!
Here are my favourites from 2014.

DOCUMENTING AN EMOTION:

One of the reasons I love self portraits is to document a feeling I had that day. Sort of putting my emotion in a scene.
It takes a bit of acting but mostly just being myself a little bit more than usual to really get the feelings through the lens.
This photo is from when I had the stupid cold in Los Angeles in november. I was bored out of my mind and needed to do something! I was in LA for fucks sake! In a fancy hotel room for that matter!
It felt almost surreal to be forced to stay inside all day in this strange luxurious place that David and I could never afford for ourselves (David's producer booked the room for us) while the sun was shining outside. We had let roomservice know that they wouldn't need to clean our room that day because I was just a pile of fever and snot and weird dreams so the feeling of being all alone in a strange place was even stronger.

I work at a group home with 24 hour shifts. There needs to be someone there during the nights for safety but the person working the nights get to sleep at work. It's a weird feeling to stand in my nightgown, brushing my teeth in the bathroom at a completely quiet and dark workplace.

Summer at my parent's house. David is talking on the phone with people in Hollywood. Astor the cat watches sceptically as I'm dancing barefoot.
Sometimes life is wonderful and weird and quite silly.
(This also reminds me of the hundreds of photos I needed to take before I actually timed the jump perfectly, hah!)

Bored on my vacation. That should be illegal, right?!

A few weeks ago I went to the doctor to take blood tests. I have a stupid thyroid that needs to be checked a lot. Blood tests aren't really my thing though, so I fainted. But I got a lollipop from the nurse, so that was nice.
Here I'm waiting for David to come pick me up, all white in my face and wobbly legged.

And sometimes it's all about getting the feeling of sunshine into the picture to remember on cold winter days.

Like in LA when the cold kept ahold of me and the setting sun felt like the best medicin there ever could be.

FINDING PERFECT LIGHT AND NEVER LETTING GO:

Sometimes it's just a matter of finding a spot with perfect lighting and revel in it.
I can't really explain it, but colours and light can make my heart sing. It feels like music to me when I watch a photo (or anything really) with beautiful tones, light and colour.
This spot in a staircase with a dusty window is just perfect and gets me every time.

I MEAN LOOK! TRIPLE SELFIE!

This was all about showing off my new pink bike shorts that kept my thighs from hating on eachother during the warm summer months.

Oh.
Yeah.
This one and the one below. Music to my colour and light loving eyes.

The sombre tones adds to the atmosphere and I think you can tell I was having days when I wasn't feeling my very best. Those days are to be remembered too, you know.

One of the things I've realised since starting to take all these self portraits is that often times I don't even think of the person in the photo as me. It's just a person, or an emotion.
That is so freeing, you have no idea!
For me it has really been a great way to stop thinking about my body in negative ways. It might sound weird, but think about it, when you see a stranger you don't give them and their bodies the same scrutiny as you do yourself, right? They are just people. People with different bodies, emotions and looks, but you can't see on the outside what they think of themselves on the inside, and when you see a stranger for the first time you only get an idea of them.
This is something I've been thinking about when I look at the photos I've just been taking. I don't see myself as me with all the things that I am. I start seeing a "perfect stranger" that is just what this photo needed. It's so hard to explain but I hope you get the idea. -Let go of the things your mind keep hanging onto and see yourself as a unique person that is meant to look just like you do.

OUTFIT PHOTOS:

That "new to you" vintage find just needs to be documented! Even though the buttons bulge a little- but maybe that was intended?

In LA in my best dress feeling so very ready for a sunny day when Sweden was having rain rain rain for months.

SETTING A SCENE:

This might be my favourite thing to do!
It's all about using the scenery around me and get it to inspire me to create a little story.
Like a game of hide and seek in a Greek temple in the middle of a forest in Sweden.

Or a fantasy land where pink rhododendron flower petals covers all the land.

Or taking the messy kitchen combining it with a lens that should have been wiped, a person in a sailor cardigan and the skirt on sideways with a bleak look on her face and calling it ART.
Ha! I love this photo. I call it "Bored Sailor girl in mint green kitchen with unpaid bills and a loaf of bread."
It's a masterpiece, right?

Finding a fairytale forest and wanting to stay in this dream world forever.

(The iPhone is standing on a tree stump leaning on a pine cone, by the way.)

Nothing is as scary as the Lights Out Hallway.
Over the knee socks and a doll like face sets the scene.

Walking around like a ghost on a dark morning.

Having a cape makes it necessary to take spooky photos on the cemetery during dusk (and scare people out walking).

Is there still time?
Airport bathroom. Nothing more to say.

Knock Knock!
A little series of photos creating a story about an abandoned trailer in the middle of nowhere California.

Anybody home?

Who's there?!

HELLOOOO! Let me in!

I'll just let myself in then...

I edit all of my photos with the app Snapseed. It's brilliant!
You can change the exposure, contrast, saturation and all that but you can also edit small areas of the photo; like if there's a spot that is a bit too dark you can lighten it up a little.
The app has a bunch of really nice filter styles too and you can change how much of the style you use and also edit brightness and saturation in every filter. You can put a tilt shift effect to your photos, create a center focus and much more.
Snapseed costs a little but it is so very worth it. It's like a mini Lightroom for your smartphone! (No, I'm not sponsored by snapseed. I'm just a big fan.)

DOUBLING IT UP:

Then we have the extra curricular. The app PhotoMirror is a really fun way to turn your photos into weird and wonderful art pieces.

This spooky hotel corridor with a Lotta inside it is even spookier when there's two Lottas in it.

Bored Squared.

Happy and excited Squared.

Bonus Pic. David and Lotta as King and Queen from a deck of cards.

The self timer app I'm using is called TimerCam and I usually set it to 10 or 15 seconds so I don't have to run to get in place. As for making the iPhone stand I use what I have around me as tripod. Books, a fruit, a folded up sock; anything really! I never ever use the flash because it just makes skin tone and everything look horrible.

And yes, it feels a bit awkward in the beginning but don't worry, you'll get used to it soon enough. And before you know it you'll start seeing scenes everywhere around you!

I hope you found this inspiring.
If you do start (or already are) taking self portraits I would love to see some!
Add or tag me on instagram or twitter (I'm @lottalosten everywhere) and show me your scenes!

Tjingeling!
/Lotta

HELLO!!
Back to blogging and it feels so gooooood!
Hiiii! How have you been?
I have been busy busy busy and realised a few days ago that I haven't blogged about when David and I went to Los Angeles in november! Oh no!
When I looked through all my iPhone photos (I only used my Nikon D7000 for two days, I'll show you those photos some other day) I found at least 100 photos that I wanted to blog. Well, that's a little bit too much, so I made up a little list for myself with everything I wanted to include in a post from our trip.
Here it is:

BEST BREAKFAST:
I searched instagram and yelp for the best breakfast places both before we went and after we arrived in LA, and since the breakfast at our hotel wasn't very good and also not included we went to a lot of breakfast places during our two week trip. One of those restaurants I found was bld. We sat outside in the sun and I ordered the eggs benedict because that had looked really nice on the photos I found on internet taken by customers.

It was so very tasty!

MOST INCREDIBLE STORE:
I had a lot of time for myself during the days because David had meetings with Hollywood people, so just like with the breakfast places I had looked up interesting spots that I wanted to go to. One of those was The Last Bookstore where I could have easily spent an entire day if needed. It was just so amazing!
Fantastical, creative and filled with books, of course! I found myself in front of the Stage/Film/Scriptwriting shelves and was very impressed with myself when I left with only two new books.

BEST MOMENT:
One day I was walking along Melrose Avenue checking out the vintage shops there. I had just tried on a fabulous 50's pencil dress that looked absolutely fantastic on me if it wasn't for the fact that it was a tad too small. When I walked past a store that made new clothes in 50's style I went in there in the hope of finding something similar.
The girl in the store was super helpful and nice and we talked a lot while she helped me find the perfect dress. When I was going to pay for the dress she asked "So, why are you in LA? Work or play?". I told her that my husband and I made a short horror film that went viral and now we're in LA because of the attention the short has gotten in Hollywood.
Oh? What's the name of the horror short?
When I said Lights Out her eyes almost popped out of her skull.
OMG! OMG! OMG! I LOVE Lights Out! OMG OMG ITS YOU! OMG it's been everywhere, on Imgur on reddit- EVERYWHERE!- OMG you could have said "Brad Pitt is outside" and I would have been like- "Meh"- but this- THIS is something I care about and OMG you were so good in it! OMG OMG! She had apparently seen Lights Out a lot of times and talked about the best parts and I was so shocked I just giggled.
Her colleague walked in from a room behind and was wondering what the hell was going on. Ha! It was absolutely wonderful.
Right when I left she called after me Come back soon so we can talk more! and then I heard her tell her colleague about how she needed to see Lights Out because it was AWESOME!
Best moment ever.

BEST WALL ART:

BEST VINTAGE FIND:
This velvet dress that seems to be made after my body, the mint belt, a red sweater and a pair of shoes was all found in a thrift store that I happened upon while looking for a coffee shop and I bought it all for almost no money at all.

BEST WALK:
Apparently people don't walk in LA. Well, I'm not like most people. I walk everywhere.
One day I walked from downtown LA through poor neighbourhoods, through Korea town and all the way to Los Feliz. It took maybe three hours. When I told people about this afterwards they just gaped at me like goldfish before exploding in a You did WHAT? Everybody told me that I have probably seen more of LA than they have. Even the ones that had lived in LA for forever.
No big deal. Haha!
My heel says otherwise though. I'll spare you the photo of the ginormous blister I got...

I ended up outside this 7Eleven for an hour waiting for David to come pick me up during rush hour. I sat on that concrete divider thingy eating fresh fruit and watching the sun set.
A woman parked her car nex to me and when she came back with a cup of coffee she sat in her car with the door open and enjoyed the sunset with me for a while. It's nice, isn't it? she said.
I agreed.
Great weather; not too hot, not too cold.
-Just perfect I said.
She smiled towards me and said It was very nice to meet you before she drove off.
Sometimes it's the small things in life.

BEST RAMEN:
The Bold Ramen at Tatsu. Might not look very tasty but oh, it was!

BEST OUTFIT PHOTO:
Taken with self timer on our hotel balcony. My absolute favourite vintage dress got to come with me to LA. The "Flowerbed dress", as I call it. Perfectly matched with mint cardigan and tights and I was a colour explosion ready for the day.

BEST WEATHER:
The two tiny clouds over Santa Monica fighting an impossible battle.

BEST SURPRISE FIND:
On the weekend we went to friends who live close to Santa Cruz. On our way there we had to stop because David had a conference call. We found a little road where we could park and I walked off with my camera and my iPhone to check out the surroundings. I found an abandoned trailer and took a gazillion self portraits. Here's a few of them.

BEST ROADTRIP:
The trip to Santa Cruz was great and our friends live at an absolutely amazing place in the Santa Cruz mountains. The sun sifted through the fog and redwood trees. It was magical! I brought my camera with me on this trip so I have a post planned with all those photos.

CRAPPIEST REALISATION:
One thing I felt very acutely during this trip was how USA has a long way to go in regards of gender equality. I have never been treated more like a child in my life. It was quite awful actually.
Every day I got called Mrs Sandberg even though my name is Lotta Losten and nothing else. In Sweden that doesn't happen. Never has anybody taken for granted that my name is anything before asking me. I may be married to David but I am not his property. It's really weird to realise that what I am used to back home, what I think is absolutely obvious and doesn't need explanations is apparently extremely new and controversal in a country that looks at itself as the Best Country in the World.
It's not very hard to see women as people. To see them as individual human beings and not jus a Mrs to a Man with a full name. Well, apparently it's not that easy for some people.
It makes me furious.
My name is Lotta Losten. I don't answer to anything else.

BEST VIEW:
From our hotel balcony one evening when the moon looked just perfect.

MOST BORING THING:
I got the worst cold of my life the last week in LA. I was completely out of it for a couple of days. Here I have gathered enough strength for a self portrait showing just how bored I was.

MOST WONDERFUL MOMENT:
I was standing in the Starbucks line waiting for my order. In front of me in the queue was a woman in the most beautiful Niqab I've ever seen, it was black with golden embroidery on. Her eyes are the only part of her face showing and they are gorgeous.
When she has her coffee and is about to pass me she sees me, put her hand on my arm and says You are absolutely beautiful. I can see in her eyes that she's smiling warmly and then she sweeps her hand up and down in the air infront of me, all the way from my blue and neon green tights covered legs to my Sgt Pepper Jacket to my long hair and repeats Just beautiful before she leaves the coffee place with the niqab flowing behind her.
I was left standing there smiling with heated red cheeks when the barista called out A Grande Skinny Vanilla Latte for Lottie!.

BEST RESTAURANT:
The Commissary at The Line Hotel. A restaurant situated in a beautiful greenhouse on top of a building in Korea Town with wonderfully weird menus and really good food.

As I mentioned really quickly earlier in this post we went to LA because of Lights Out. David has managers and agents there and they are working on making Lights Out into a feature film. It's exciting times, dear friends and readers! I hope to be able to tell you more in the not too distant future.
Bring on 2015, I say!

Hope you had a wonderful Christmas holiday if you celebrate that.
I had a couple of great days with my family, and after a few really hectic months I'm now ready for a new year with my head filled with lots of new ideas.
Talk to you soon again!

Tjingeling!
/Lotta

Hi!
SO much has been going on lately. Let's take a peek, shall we?!

It was almost Halloween and that got me in the mood of taking spooky self portraits. Here's three of them:

Vintage Nurse Cape weather on the cemetery at dusk.
Scared a few people by walking around the graves looking shady (or trying to find a good tombstone to lay my phone on and take a picture with the self timer).

The Lights Out hallway is a constant source of creativity.

One lazy morning, wearing the dressing gown sewn by my mother out of beautiful vintage lace curtains.

David and I made our horror short Coffer in time for Halloween. Here's a behind the scenes photo showing how David got in character.

And if you want to see how David and I made the film David did a Behind the Scenes video on Coffer. You can find that here.

A november rose at the cemetery.

Opening night for the play "Perfect Life AB" was getting closer and I had lines to learn!

When we emptied the chest before filming Coffer I found some long forgotten treasures in a bag.

My beloved Vintage nurse cape and, if I may say so myself, some Rita Hayworth-y hair!

And this has become a favourite outfit for me.
The red vintage hat is really lovely, but since I don't own any black coats it hasn't been used that much. It doesn't really go with any of the colourful coats I own so it has been hanging on the wall, forever waiting.
Until I realised I could pair it with my over sized thrifted cardigan and a big scarf!
I'm calling it my "Annie Lennox Look".
It's getting too cold now though so I might need to find a black coat soon...

One day I got a new phone AND sushi. It was a good day. As you can see.

Hair hair everywhere.

(see! The "Annie Lennox Look" again!)
Waiting for the rest of Teater Esther sitting on the pink plastic chair that very much resembles a toilet throne.

Teater Esther (well, some of us: Lisa, Frida and I) hard at work making scenography for our play.

We spent a day and evening making the scene look all pink and beautiful. David was helping with lights and stuff and here he takes a break on stage.

A little later in the evening. Time for Hanna to take a little break in the middle of the stage.

Me peeking though the curtains looking like a very happy and excited red apple.

Testing the cookies I baked in the middle of the night to sell during the play's intermission. The recipes is from my grandmother and it makes the best cookies ever.

Perky and Grumpy in the elevator. Part 2.
(To see part 1, click here.)

It was my birthday on november 7.
It might be one of my best birthdays this far. Coconut frozen yoghurt, great presents, sushi lunch, opening night of our play (It went AWESOME!) and after that Teater Esther and our friends went to a restaurant to celebrate. Such a lovely lovely day!
And don't be fooled by the number of lights in the frozen yoghurt and the childlike happiness in my face; I am now 33 years old.

A pre show selfie in the dressing room.

The colourful life of our neighbours.

My mother and father came to Gothenburg on saturday to see the play. I took the opportunity to trick them into a family selfie in the elevator!

Yesterday there was a rooftop meeting on the house next to ours.

And you know what!? David and I are going to LA for some still very secret, but oh so exciting, stuff! Sorry (not sorry) for the teasing but it just makes me so happy I might burst!
Sun and warmth and adventures, here we come!

Talk to you soon again!

Tjingeling!
/Lotta

Oh! And it has come to my attention that the link to the little video I made on how to pronounce my name in my last post didn't work.
It has now been fixed! You can see the video here if you want too.