This blog is turning into a "Self Portraits and Thoughts Blog". Well, if that's how my mind works right now, then so be it!
Today's self portrait is from yesterday when I once again wandered around the Lights Out production office in search of interesting places.
I like how it feels like I'm sitting in an enormous tank or something like that.
I thought a little update would be appropriate because you know what? As of tomorrow they start shooting Lights Out!
Yesterday it became official that Teresa Palmer
is going to star as the lead in the movie. She's awesome!
Everything is happening so quickly right now and it feels so surreal that it's Actually Happening
. Tomorrow. They start shooting tomorrow.
All because David and I made a short film in our apartment. Still can't get it. It's just too much.
The scenes I'm going to be in are the last ones to be filmed, but I will be hanging around the set a lot anyways just because it's so exciting! I mean, a real Hollywood film shoot! AMAZING!
I probably won't be allowed to blog much about it, but I hope I can show you at least some behind the scenes photos. We'll see...
So that was all for now I think.
Oh, one more thing! I'm just so happy to have been here on the day when same sex marriages were made legal in the entire United States of America. I have been crying so many happy tears this weekend. 21 countries
of the world have marriage equality now. Many more need to get behind this, because Love is just Love. And everyone should be allowed to express it freely, no matter of sexual orientation. Love wins. Always.
I will never grow up if that means stopping to play pretend.
Today I pretended I was in a bunch of movies. On my adventures I found an old car, a rooftop with weird things on it, and a cool metal structure tower. All things that fit perfectly into my fantasies...
Pretending I'm in a Mad Max movie.
(By the way: such a GREAT movie!)
Pretending I'm in a 90s movie.
One of my favourite movies ever is Reality Bites
and I would LOVE to be a part of that gang (or a movie just like it, if it isn't possible to have myself transported into that exact imaginary world).
Pretending I'm in a Hollywood action movie, running away from an explosion and/or some really bad guys. Or maybe I'm the bad guy? That would be cool.
And lastly: Pretending I'm in a Karate Kid movie.
I created the hashtag #lottapretendingshesinmovies, because I have a feeling I might have to take more pictures like this. It's just so fun!
Okay, that was all for today! Talk to you soon!
FINALLY it's out! Even though the story got leaked a little bit too early before the press release was ready it feels great to be able to tell you all: Lights Out is about to become a feature film!
David is directing the movie here in LA for New Line Cinema/Warner bros James Wan
is producing, Eric Heisserer
is writing the script and it's all very crazy bananas indeed!
I will be in the movie too, in the very beginning, so YAY! Hollywood debut!
Lights Out in theatres 2016, everybody!
And for you who still hasn't seen our short that has made all of this happen (where the hell have you been hiding all this time?) you can watch Lights Out here
It really is wonderful and surreal to think how a 2.5 minute short that David and I made in our aparment one evening has turned into all of this.
It's bonkers. In the best kind of way.
Oh, so now you know why we're in LA, haha!
Let's talk a little about holding yourself back and how to not do that. Okay?
I want to be a person who does what I love the most without limitations sprung from worry over what other people might think. I think many can relate to that. It's one of those universal feelings we humans drag around without knowing how to get rid of.
The people I look up to the most are the ones who do what they do as largely as they possibly can. Seemingly free from ideas and restraints of how you "should be". Just doing their thing.
I often feel captured between a will to be free and wild in my (creative) expression and a fear that people will not like me. And that is the best way to not create anything interesting ever.
The other day I was struck by a realisation though.
The person you look up to the most (and maybe want to be like) are not loved by everyone. Because it's not possible to be unique and interesting without having people not liking you.
It was like turning on a lightswitch in my head. So simple, really, but earth shattering for me.
It's not possible to stand out and not have people who can't stand you (see what I did there?).
And I really really want to stand out.
Let's take an example:
At the moment I have a lot of time for myself. I'm alone during the days and therefore I take a lot of self portraits.
A fear that pops into my brain quite a lot though is the worry that people are going to see me as self absorbed, that they are going to misunderstand the purpose behind my pictures.
At the same time there's almost nothing that I enjoy more right now. I see myself grow through every self portrait I take, and what comes from having only myself as an instrument, has turned into this amazing way to express myself and be creative every day. Turn places and emotions into a stage bigger than what it was moments before.
And you know what? If someone sees me as narcissistic then okay, let them think that.
Hopefully there's at least some people who find what I do interesting and inspiring.
And if not- okay, I might need to go and turn that emotion into a self portrait though...
Both these self portraits are taken at David's office building here in LA during the weekends when there's nobody there except for us (and the labrador Matt who came to visit one time) And in both of them my face is lit by my iPad.
Until next time: